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As We Crawl

by Sarah Golley

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1.
From the Sea 00:37
Sometimes I visit the beach in winter just to remind myself that it's still there. I walk out on the rocks as if to dance atop the water as the frigid fresh salty air reddens my cheeks. As the sun sets I take comfort in knowing her beauty remains, even though it is not beach weather, and how even in her offseason there are still a few there to admire her in the silence and stillness of colder times.
2.
Maybe I’m the one who can teach you Maybe I’m the one who can make you change your mind Maybe I’m the one who can teach you At least I have to try Please understand I am not demanding Please understand I am only giving Please understand I just want you near me I don’t understand Why can’t we just be I do not need permission to feel I do not need permission to be ‘Cause I already am I already am I already am I already am I already am I already am I already am I already am And that which fills my flesh That which fills my flesh That which fills my flesh That which fills my flesh That fills my flesh That which fills my flesh That which fills my flesh with nebulas and laughter Fills my flesh with nebulas and laughter Fills my flesh with nebulas and laughter Fills my flesh with nebulas and laughter is the point The whole point Maybe you’re the one who can teach me Maybe you’re the one who can make me see the signs Maybe you’re the one who can teach me God, I hope you’ll try Please understand I am not demanding Please understand I am not taking Please understand I am not asking Please understand I am just waiting
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Over Time 04:36
You bear the weight of the curtain crushed beneath its folds You deny your agony just to keep it closed But your drama mask is paper It’s full of rips and tears Kept mending it for decades It’s on its last repairs But your drama mask is paper It’s full of rips and tears Kept mending it for decades It’s on its last repairs And oh how we can change over time And oh how we don’t change over time But what’s unknown consumes you Be it serene or dark No you prefer to suffer Beneath your grand arc But your drama mask is paper It’s full of rips and tears Kept mending it for decades It’s on it’s last repairs But your drama mask is paper It’s full of rips and tears Kept mending it for decades It’s on its last repairs And oh how we can change over time And oh how we don’t change over time Oohhhh Here we are standing side by side Once again I find myself in this mess Have I even left those days long ago When you held my hand And kissed my cheek Let my fingers speak But your drama mask is paper It’s starting to show tears Keep mending it for fear now You’re gonna be left bare But your drama mask is paper It’s starting to show tears Keep mending it for fear now You’re gonna be left bare And oh how we can change over time And oh how we don’t change over time
4.
Oh when you kiss me my whole world changes in hue The sky is no longer blue It is ruby sunsets all day And all night how my skin longs for your touch My fingers reach out grasping at strands That should be lying next to mine Oh how I could spend my whole life sitting with you Under our favorite tree With a ukulele strumming our songs Singing and laughing or just laying in the shade Our time cannot be wasted if we’re finally feeling something real Royal reptile Things just make sense in our world Royal reptile Things feel so good in our own world And when our eyes are locked and you begin to shake The universe is spinning around us in our place under the stars For hours and hours and hours that are never long enough Melt into me I need you closer than allowed by our atoms Royal reptile Things just make sense in our world Royal Reptile Things feel so good in our own world And if tomorrow is eclipsed like the blood moon Just know that it is fleeting You are etched inside my soul behind my ear And when the brightness has returned to the night sky I’ll be there with my arms around you Holding you so tight to keep you warm. To keep you warm
5.
The air that night was made of lightning in the smoky twilight I was absorbing the energy through osmosis My feet moved with purpose My actions impulsive But I do not regret I do not regret Do not regret, do not regret, do not regret Do not regret The sky divided in two hues The bottom orange the top blue And though the moon was not full It reminded me of you And all I remember are the stars and the night skies And the icy blue of your eyes It’s the icy blue of your eyes I could not speak ill of you if I tried If I cared to try I could not speak ill of you If I cared to try. If I dared to try I’m a masochist for your affection Observing you eases the pain Brings a smile to my face All those smiles on my face as I lay in the lemon juice. My thick skin and my open wounds, laying in the lemon juice, the lemon juice The sting reminds me of the scratches that you gave me all those nights under glitter skies The stars remind me of your eyes locked on mine full of affection and desire That first night by the fire when your Whole body melted into me You were bashful at my gaze and I sang to you And you kissed me to shut me up And you kissed me to shut me up And you kissed me to shut me up Fill my cup, fill my cup overflowing with strength Strength and emotion You spoke of such devotion and I’m left a better person for it all I can’t fall I can’t fall I can’t fall I can’t fall I can’t fall I can’t fall I just burn I just burn full of love love love I just burn full of love love love I could not speak ill of you if I tried If I cared to try You broke my heart, but I’m fine I’m fine Deep down inside I am fine Deep down inside I am fine That night I sat upon a child’s swing And swayed to the soundtrack of us It left something to be desired as the energy calmed Light-polluted The night was light-polluted, so I could not see you You were not here The swing was not the same swing My legs were not around you My lips were not pressed against your skin But still, there was pretty water And colorful skies I danced alone I danced alone I danced alone, but a little restored With a slice of my heart reserved for you.
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Out 05:01
Out of the blue and into the red I feel so alive, but wish I was dead Floating above this slippery slope I turn to you as my only hope Out of the water and into the sun I singed my ribs, until there were none Skin tanned and glowing, then burnt to a crisp I can’t see what is there. Don’t know what this is. Plant the seeds of peace in my corps Let those tears roll down bringing them life The roots, they fill the cracks The roots, they fill the cracks The roots, they fill the cracks. It grows up to the stars It grows up to the stars Laced between your fingers Or tracing your smile in my car Or as we dance unashamed of our scars As we dance unashamed of our scars Pressed together as a guide to our hearts Our scars pressed together as a guide to our hearts Out of the mud and into the soil I lapped my first sip from a river that’s boiled So very thirsty, yet too pained to drink How can I go on to taste better things?
7.
Up a Tree 02:03
8.
Oh i hate these thoughts trapped inside This body I am trapped inside This existence I had no say in This existence I didn't ask for This existence And these walls built up so high These walls, they’re built up so high These walls And I throw myself whole-heartedly And I throw myself whole-heartedly And I throw myself whole-heartedly At the other side But still these words and thoughts that hide the truest form that's free and fun Keep swirling ‘til I'm undone Keep swirling ‘til I’m undone Keep swirling I do not believe you or trust I do not believe or trust I do not believe or trust I do not believe you Or trust How can I with all these particles floating all around in here? These particles floating all around in here These particles floating all around in here A dull ghost a shade of dust A dull ghost a shade of dust A dull ghost a shade of dust Forgotten, I reach out and up Forgotten, I reach out and up Forgotten I am swallowed up Swallowed up Swallowed up And I suck the marrow on the way down I suck the marrow on the way down I suck the marrow on the way down The salt nourishes the beggar The salt nourishes the beggar The salt nourishes the beggar ‘Til he chokes on his own comforts ‘Til he chokes on his own comforts ‘Til he chokes on his own comforts Then there's nothing left Nothin’ left Nothin’ left Nothin’ left, nothin’ left Nothin’ left Nothin’ left, nothin’ left Nothing left Nothing left to give purpose Then there's nothing left to be Then there’s nothing left to be Then there’s nothing left to be…
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Mi sol Mi fa mi sol la ti do’ ti fa me Mi sol Mi fa mi sol la ti do’ ti fa me Absolutely no room for fear in this heart Absolutely no room for fear in this heart Absolutely no room for fear in this heart Absolutely no room for fear in this heart I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks Be selfless selfless selfless, self-love Be selfless selfless selfless, self-love Be selfless selfless selfless, self-love Be selfish, selfish , selfish , selfish Love yourself, lo-love yourself, Love yourself lo- lo lo lo love yourself, Love yourself lo- lo lo lo love yourself. Love yourself. But that’s not lady-like But who care’s what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? But who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? But who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? But who care’s what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? Who cares what they think? People like a confident person People like a confident person Sit there like a god with no ears Sit there like a god with no ears {{{{{ SCREAM}}}}}} Absolutely No Room for fear in this heart / Who cares what they think? I need to gather up the pieces that slipped through the cracks and focus on the music.
10.
Wary of first light Creeping up my face Until there's creases for eyes Leaving no room for hate Ahhh Though the flowers have died Purple like the sun Tracing across the sky Just as the day is done Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh Ahhh Hear me open in heart Broken, yet unafraid Crawling to make art Where the shatters remain Ah Ah Ah…. Well whaddya know Once the moment has passed It won't be re-lived That ember can't last Sure it circles around, it will return Met with a flame that no longer burns Straight out of your lips and into my ears At a standstill paralyzed by fear Well whaddya know Once the moment has passed It won't be re-lived That ember can't last Sure it circles around, it will return Met with a flame that no longer burns Straight out of your lips and into my ears At a standstill paralyzed by fear Those monsters are gonna get you! Oooooo Fear me, open in heart Broken, yet unashamed Crawling to make art Where the shatters once laid I can pull my own weight I'm as strong as an ox But 12 metric tons of feathers would need a gigantic box And there's no way in hell my arms could reach around to carry All this deadweight I'm expected to bury But you're fine just keep swimming with that box on your head Gulping up habits you knew to be dead But no they're just rolling around in their bed Laughing at your existential dread As you tread You can feel it in your gut, you can feel it in your chest And the only explanation is that you're really very stressed “But you're so young what do you got to be stressed about? Life's too short”
11.
Here I go Here I go Where does the world take you? Where did the world take you today? Where does the world take you? Just kidding I don't fucking care OO I am trudging through the multiverse And I'm crawling from our universe I am trudging through the multiverse And I'm crawling from our universe Out a black hole Out a black hole You never wanted me None of you ever wanted me You never wanted me So tell me, why did you need me to want you so much? OO I am trudging through the multiverse And I'm crawling from our universe I am trudging through the multiverse And I'm crawling from our universe Out a black hole Out a black hole Out a black hole Out a black hole Black hole Out a black hole I’m not what you think I am Even if you want me to be Even if you need me to be To put what’s real back in its place Even if you need me to be to put what’s real back in its place Even if you need me to be to put what’s real back in its place Instead of looking it in the face Instead of looking it in the face Instead of looking it in the face Instead of looking it in the face Instead of looking it in the face Instead of looking it in the face I don’t know what’s worse I don’t know what’s worse Have I been forgotten or cursed, forgotten or cursed? Forgotten or cursed? I don’t know what’s worse! I don’t know! Have I been forgotten? Have I been forgotten-gotten? Have I been forgotten? Have I been forgotten-gotten? I don’t know what’s worse, what’s worse, what’s worse. So I’m just gonna Leap leap leap leap leap right out of there/ Leap leap leap away So I’m just gonna Leap leap leap leap leap right out of there/ Leap leap leap away So I’m just gonna Leap leap leap leap leap right out of there/ Leap leap leap away So I’m just gonna Leap leap leap leap leap right out of there/ Leap leap leap away Maybe more like a over-the-shoulder roll than a leap /Intentionally falling into the deep Maybe more like a over-the-shoulder roll than a leap /Intentionally falling into the deep Maybe more like a over-the-shoulder roll than a leap /Intentionally falling into the deep Maybe more like a over-the-shoulder roll than a leap /Intentionally falling into the deep (woo) Maybe more like a over-the-shoulder roll than a leap /Intentionally falling into the deep

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released September 14, 2019

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Sarah Golley New Haven, Connecticut

Sarah Golley combines an eclectic mixture of genres, weaved with sincere lyricism, using a keyboard, her voice, and a looper. Her influences include a background in musical theater, Romantic and 20th century post-tonal composers, choral singing, jazz, and visual lyricists. Sarah uses music to grow as a human. She hopes others will relate to her journey on this strange and beautiful planet. ... more

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